“Sometimes the ones we share special moments with become strangers,we watch them slip away, we try to hold on with a firm grip yet in those moments our strength seem to be working against us. we mourn cos we failed, failed to recognize this new being, failed to accept what now is…”
I wish you know how i miss our glee filled times
I wish we didn’t drift apart
I wish your ears was apt to listen to my heart speak
I wish my heart spoke loud enough
The silence is killing
The echoes of your voice is resonating
This page was never closed
I’m rereading the lines of pretense
Decoding words with encrypted meanings “I should have”
I hate this part of the story
Why didn’t we try harder?
To become better for each other
Why didn’t we fight the battles together?
Instead we fought each other
This contest of strength has made me the bereaved
I can’t admit to failure
But I’ve failed in holding on to what we’ve shared
I’ve failed just as you
Failed to understand that communication was everything
The silence built walls so tall I couldn’t climb
How did we become okay with “not speaking with each other”
“I should have stopped”
Stopped the voice in my head
The one who thought you deserved better
How did I forget that better was me being your best buddy
Loving your flaws and seeing the future with it
Why did I let myself believe the tree of friendship will never bear fruit?
That watering will only kill it.
Ours is a tale of two cities
Lost to the cold hands of war
The war of pride, ignorance, deceit, judgments and assumptions
This war has killed something beautiful
And has left me to mourn
I mourn cos I think I’ve lost you forever
You saw the world just as I did,
We craved, loved and spoke freely
With you my spirit ran wild
I’ve lost a part of me too
Now I mourn the emptiness in my heart.